Getting into my own groove!

I have been soooo irritable lately. It started yesterday. My poor husband. He’s been a wonderful man and so supportive. I just don’t want him around me. I don’t want anyone around me. I want to lay on my side of the bed ALONE. I’m not usually like that. I am the huggy, slightly inappropriate friend who will tell you she loves you a million times. Lol! With my husband I am constantly invading his personal space. It drives him nuts! I now know what that feels like. He’s trying to help but instead of helping I feel suffocated and surrounded. I’m not usually like this. My attitude came out of nowhere. Like I said it started yesterday. I know why I’m irritable today. I didn’t get any sleep last night. As I’m sure you all know (and if you didn’t now you do) a cancer patient needs to rest. Overdoing it can literally be the difference between recovering from chemo @ home to recovering in the hospital. I am constantly exhasted. I try to rest as much as I can but it can be difficult. Especially with work, my new responsibilities as a wife, trying to make time for my friends, my goddaughter,  and my nieces and nephew. Several friends I haven’t seen in a really long time. It isn’t that I don’t miss them because I do. My friends bring such diversity and personality to my lives. I love them each so much but for completely different reasons. Luckily for me they are married so they understand that “newlywed” phase. Heck, with their husbands they are still in a form of the newlywed stage. I have wonderful role models on how to make a marriage work while keeping yourself and your sanity. One of the things I had stopped doing was doing things without my husband. It’s usually just us and sometimes my stepson. However, I’ve read so many books about being a newly married couples and one of the most important steps they discuss is to still hang out with the girlfriends you had before you met your husband. Not only does it make you life more enriched than it could have ever been it’s healthy for you. That’s right ladies. I’m  saying hanging out with your girlfriends is very healthy and recommended. You want your significant other to miss you a little while you’re gone. I think every woman gets wrapped up the first couple of months of marriage. It’s that peak time where it’s just you and your honey and it’s bliss. I’m not going to lie. Marriage is definitely not easy. You both have to want and need to constantly work on the state of your marriage to keep it thriving and healthy. I am not a marriage counselor. I am only talking about my experience with the first 5 months of my marriage. Lol! Anyway, I am ridiculously tired so I am going to hit the hay and wake up as beautified as ever